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Syafiqah 08o492 loves her mum,dad,darlings and cookie =) Changkatchangisec.

*loves:
{mum and dad =D
{her darlings
{khalafi a.k.a cookie
{chocolates
{talking and kecoh
{cats =)s

*loathes:
{butterflies
{BIG FAT liars
{nudges
{cramp
{haters

{wishlist}

make my parents proud =D
to have a memorable day with my darlings and him too <3<
dance club to achive gold for next year's SYF *cheErs*
go shopping with darlings <3
lots and lots of vintage shirts!
{fellows}

GAYLE <3}
 MANDE <3}
 YASMIN <3}
 A'FIFAH <3}
 jess}
 si ning =D} xuhan =D}
 fir =D}
 shanice}
 hweeying}
 sarah}
 amer}
 jason}
 melle}
 peishan}
 isma}

{express}

 
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
as usual i had dance 2dae..did power..after dance decided 2 wiat 4 yasmin 2 finish her ncc..after eating at BK we were wondering where 2 go so at last we went 2 yasmin's mum food stall..felt so awkward being dere cuz ppl will kip staring at u..after dat we went 2 harbour front..walk2 den went back..

heartbroken



9:48 PM

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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
had engish oral 2dae..waa seh..kept saying 'ya..ermm..'..i scared fail sia..nvm..juz pray dat i can pass =)..after dat,sharm and yasmin went 2 my house 2 play com liao..after they went back @ around i logged off den slept 4 awhile den online again..2morrow haf dance....yay!!cant wait..


fuck off u bitch



Things will never be the same without you… What did I do to deserve this I didn't even get one last kiss From you – oh baby God took your love from me He needed an angel so it seems I need to feel your hands all over me I need to feel you kissin me I need to feel you holdin me I need to feel your touch Cuz I miss your love so much And I… can’t keep on living this way I need you here with me Why would he take you away... from me (Chorus:) It's hard for me to tell you I love you As I'm standing over your grave And I'll know I'll never hear your voice again Why did you leave me Why couldn't you just stay Because my world is nothing, without you Now I don't know what to do with myself I would've given you anything Just to make you happy Just to hear you say that you love me one last time I'd go to hell back over and over again Just to prove to you, how much I need you here There is nothing that I wouldn't do I cry for you… I lied for you And there's no doubt that if I could take your place from heaven I would die for you… yes I would I would rather give up my life Then to see tears in your eyes I can't stand to see you cry (Chorus) I just don’t know what to do with myself I can’t stop looking at those pictures on my shelf Knowing it was just one week ago, stood there and took that picture There just one thing that I want to know Why would god want to hurt me so bad Does he know how much it hurts to be missing you Baby, I’m missing you… baby I’m missing you I love you… ooh… god damnit I love you Why did he did he take you away, Love me…because I love you so… I miss you so much baby… I just can’t go on baby



8:48 PM

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Monday, May 29, 2006
wah seh..have beenn bz these 2 daes..kk will update feel so odd if i dun..lol


yesterdae>>went 2 chalet..cik mus nyer chalet..tot it wud be boring den didnt want 2 go but den mum forced me and i had 2 go..reached dere sat dere lyk an idot..den when nite comes then i felt lyk as if i didnt want 2 go home..at ferst i walk around the chalet lyk an idiot den met this 2 kids playing with the ball..i wanted 2 join but felt so embarrased den i juz sat dere until this group of chinese guys came and sae dat they wanna play soccer with them..there were 3 of them so the 2 kids invited me and my bro 2 join them so we joined..was quite glad actually..den come this 2 guys..name hakim and haikal(siblings)amd they joined in the game ..den another 2 person join..wah seh at dat moment i was lyk wth suddenly many ppl come..den u noe wad?this group of CSS teachers joined us too..hah..we played for about an hour..didnt expect dat tis wud happen..hah..after the game end..the teachers thank us 4 the game..we went home at about 12 plus..den slept at about 3 plus bcuz i was talking 2 taufiq(my msn fren)..got 2 noe him better after the talk..

2dae>>As usual got dance den after dance follow yasmin go rebond her hair..u noe wad..i oso end up rebonding my frindge..lol den went back

missing you



8:42 PM

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Saturday, May 27, 2006
yesterdae my dad didnt allow me 2 go online..dunno y sia..haiz


yesterdae>>went 2 see the VP..yeah ryt..nagged here nagged dere den still can smile2 sia..tsk2..den u noe wad?when i went out dat bitch was dere!so obvious dat she was trying 2 hear wad the VP sae lor..eh gal,i wont drop lar ehk..i even promise 2 the VP dat i will werk hard so fat chance dat i will drop..mark my werds..i'm gonna do well aite..mark dat..

2dae>>staying at home...so boring la can..only chat wif Abdullah and Firdaus..gayle and mande nt online=(oya..sme1 wrote me a frenster msg(nt goin 2 tell hu,u want u ask me personally)..i dun reli get wad he mean sia...lol..


will alwaes be by ur side..love u IBU!



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Thursday, May 25, 2006
...yesterdae didnt update aniting juz the stress ting so gonna up date nw..here it goes


yesterade:

shyt i 4get liao wad happened yesterdae.wait3 i tink..uh huh..yea..had modern dance,practiced 4 the 4oth anniversary..haiz..so stress..den on the wae back in bus i saw isma's mum den salam..went back home then go online liao..


2dae:

went 2 confront dat B***H..she still can sae its a'fifah fault lor..she kept saying the same ting until we brought in QH name lor..den she wanna sae..cmon bitch,its so obvious dat ur twisting the story so stop ur acting aite..i'm nt satified wif u..

TO DAT PERSON U SURELY NO HU U R:lyk wad sharm sae we dun bother u please dun bother us juz mind ur own business can?? and i am sure dat ur damn happy 2 hear dat i'm quitting gerl guide ryt??i bet u r..dun tink i quited bcoz of u..so please dun feel so BHB..i haf better tings 2 concentrate on lyk dance and my studies..and last reminder dun ever tink of trying 2 use any of us 2 get info whether we talk about u or not..even if we do wad can u do?its our mouth so F**K OFF OK?
i dun wish 2 waste my tym on a person lyk u..dats all LoSer


WHERE DID U GO?



7:42 PM

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
ARGH!S-T-R-E-S-S!!!wad the hell sia??how am i suppose 2 tell tis 2 my mum??????arghhh




happy now bitch?



8:56 PM

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
sometyms i wonder y the MOE must gif us those difficult papers 2 deal wif.bullshyt..now wad??i having problem sia and the problem is affecting my mood..my mood 2 go outing 4 tmrw my mood 4 dancing..haiz..stupid!!!!stressstressstress...GOD,i nid my answer 2 my questions....haiz..arghhh...some1 help me can????i juz cant seem 2 reax myself.................................


somebody save me



8:44 PM

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Monday, May 22, 2006
yay!2dae we get 2 switch 2 home econ..lala..no longer DNT..sux man..lol..2dae had dance,waa seh my back so pain do stretch here stretch dere..haiz..lol juz nw when me,gayle qian hao and euodia were on our wae out of schl it started 2 rain so heavily.damn sway can den we used my umbrella den u noe wad happen?lolx!the umbrella turned inside out and gayle and me were laughing non stop when we were crossing the road..haha.

feel the emptiness inside me



9:36 PM

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Sunday, May 21, 2006
sian lor 2dae..we planned 2 go out 2dae but den ended up we didnt go..sian sian sian..hmm..2dae schl liao...so boring sia..2dae nothing much happen...lyk usual lor..hah..i watching SI now..lol,see some of them very funny sia..hahakz..hmm..


be the 1 2 save me



8:52 PM

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Saturday, May 20, 2006
u noe wad??i almost 4get 2 update my blog again...lol!thankx 2 ABDULLAH la...tanx buddie=)heh..actually 2 dae nth new juz a typical dae..sleep eat chat lor..hmm...aiya 2dae might as well dun post lor bt since i remembered juz post lor..hehekz..



goin crazy



11:01 PM

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Friday, May 19, 2006
yes..i failed my math again..got very low 4 my math..damn low la can..nvm..wad can i do?its oredy done so no use dwelling over it..2dae had GG..went 4 the course..was a fast 1 sia..den pkayed game during guides..quite fun..oya,juz now when we were taking photo outside the police station,got tis whole bunch of CD(civil defence)guys go wolf whistle..siao ar they..so cikopek sia..


for this particular person:cmon la..dun nid 2 hide ur fucking true colours and act so gud infront of others yet talk bad bout the behind their back..stop hiding ur true colours..almost all of us noe ur fucking attitude oredy..dun treat others lyk toys ok bitch>>u wanna noe y i call u bitch?ok i tell u..cuz u behave lyk wan fucking female dog and u flirt arnd lyk a despo dats y i called u dat...dats the best werd i guess..pukimak is oso a gud werd 2 scold u..find it rather interesting ..hmm...and ya..stop acting ok?ur acting sux..wanna act oso cnt act properly..cn go die la u..wan act so gud infront of me..u can fuck off la ok..its the best wae BITCH.

U ARE MY ONLY 1



9:46 PM

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Thursday, May 18, 2006
2dae straight awae after schl we went for lunch den i went 2 grandma's house..luckily my uncle offer 2 send us dere..went 2 SGH..sianz sia..waited for at least 2 hours 4 my grandma's turn..den i was the 1 hu had 2 suffer u noe..she nagged2 sae y so late la this la dat la..sian..went out of the hospital at arnd 6 plus and reached home at 7 plus..2dae didnt even talk 2 a'fifah..dunno wads happening 2 our frenship..izit gonna stay lydat 4ever?hope not..haiz..i almost fail my english paper sia..had never failed english b4..damn it!but i'm thankful dat at least i passed=)..2dae i find tis sme1 very irritating sia..smile here smile dere den behind ppl go backstab sia..sae bad tings about them lyk as if she is so perfect..pls la..u haf guy oredy den act lyk yr attached oredy la dun go arnd smsing other guys and talk about them 2 ur bf..i reli pity her bf sia..he love her so much yet she do this 2 him..ok,dun wan 2 talk bout it anymore..i'm pissed off..ass la she.. i no comment..spoil my mood sia..

ur the reason i feel so alive



9:38 PM

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
2dae was a boring dae 4 me..stayed at home 4rm morning 2 nite..haiz...was online in the morning 4rm 9am to 3pm plus den logged off 4 awhile..yasmin called me den we talked on the phne 4 1 hour plus..we talked laugh talked laugh and den put down the phne and without realising i was asleep 4 lyk 2hours plus until 6plus den i online again until now lorx..nth 2 do wad..2morrow scared sia wan 2 go schl..guess will be getting my papers back..sure die 1..hmm..god,i am getting darker sia..so sad..bt nvm..lyk wad Gayle the president sae,we haf sum whitening cream wad..duhh..hmm..*yawn*..oya..lucky readers la u all..i almost 4get 2 update my blog sia..hahahkz..STM la..paiseh hor..hmm..ok lar..i wanna sleep..gdnite!




my one and only



10:11 PM

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
2dae went 2 pasir ris beach with Mande,Yasmin,Gayle,Sharm,a'fifah and sab..we planned 2 mit up at 1030 in the morning but ended up meeting each other at arnd 12..lolx..sharm and gayle were the ferst ones 2 arrive..me and sab went 2 mcdonald 2 look 4 them..waited 4 at least 1 hour 4 fifah and yasmin..yasmin's mum cooked bee hun..it was delicious..haf 2 thank her mum=)..we hit the water the moment we finished eating the food..at ferst,i didnt want 2 join them in the water but ended up joining them..lolx..cuz will feel so left out if i didnt go in the water wif them..so we stayed in the water 4 at least half an hour den me,sharm and yasmin went 2 the playground 2 play..Gayle got sunburn=( pity her...hmm,i sometyms envy Mande..she haf a lyf full of exciting tings happening arnd her..lucky her=)she's got great and fun cousins sia..so gud..me,i am nt even close 2 them..hmm..yeah,me and him broke u 2dae..2dae is our 1st mth anniversary so me and him only 1 month and dat is damn short sia..nvm,i dun regret breaking wif him..i feel dat i'm free 2 do aniting i want...*yawn*damn tired..guess gonna sleep early 2dae..its a tiring dae but a fun 1:)

gdnite!


stronger without you



7:42 PM

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Monday, May 15, 2006
B***H is the best way 2 discribe her..i'm juz being straight foward lor..u see,we all planned 2 go pasir ris beach den skali hor the B***H sae she oso go cuz sae wad gg wif the old frens(as if lor)..she wanted it 2 sound as if its coincidentally we were gg on the same dae..make me pissed off sia..but nvm =)i cant wait 4 tmrw sia..ferst we gonna enjoy ourselves till we are satisfied den he sae he gonna meet me tmrw..yes!!!lol..cant wait...hmm..he sae he gonna bring 2 of his frens den i was lyk are they gonna follow us arnd luckily no but they are juz gonna sit arnd dere..*tsk tsk*hmm..ya hor 4get 2 sae wad i did 2dae..hmm..the math paper was lyk damn hard lar can den u noe wad the B***H was so irritating sia she turned our direction and chewed tis chewing gum...so distracting den can still ask our form teacher how 2 do the que..idiot sia..hate her so much..will alwaes do..mark my words..fcuk la..wadeva..cnt be bothered..its typical her wad..nvm..cant wait 4 tmrw=)gonna see him..yay!!!!


buhbye!!!
love ya all


~will alwaes hate u..bear dat in mind~



5:58 PM

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

takder keje laen ehk? Me sHaRm N yasMin ShaKiRA!!!
YEaH!
PeaCe GuYs!
piC TaKeN on 14 mAY 2006



9:17 PM

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went 2 yasmin house 2 study but ended up didnt study(expected)den instead of studying we all go take lots and lots of pic..lolx..den went 2 tm 2 see the ring dat i want 2 buy 4 him..but its 15dollars sia..haiz..x but nice..nvm juz buy lor..he sae tmrw den confirm wif me whether meeting or nt..haiz..lyk wad ryt last minute den wanna sae..sad sia..den we took neoprint..only me and yasmin so nt dat lively lor..*smile and photo taken smile and photo taken*..so sianz..wished dat gayle sharm sab mande etc were dere den it wud be more lively..but nvm=)i wud be able 2 see them tmrw...yay!dunno y so happy see them sia..hah..maybe love them 2 much..lolx..*yawn*i tired oredy.sianz 2morrow math paper 2 sia..damn nervous..wish me luck 4 tmrw paper aite...kk,i tink i gtg now..


buhbye! nitez=)



will alwaes be by my side



8:36 PM

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Saturday, May 13, 2006
As WE gO oN
We ReMeMbeR
Me=)
AlL tHE TyMS
We HaD TogETHer We WIlL stiLL Be
FRENZ 4EvEr
Will aLWAeS be bY mY sIDE



3:26 PM

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THe ClOSEsT gUy FReN

TaQQy!




3:23 PM

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2dae did nth much..i was planning 2 go online at 2pm but guess wad?my elder sis was oredy infront of the com(sianz)..had 2 wait 4 at least 1 hour 2 be able 2 use the com..hmm..while sitting on the sofa,i juz remembered dat my bf was celebrating his bdae 2dae..i cant come cuz its 2 far..so sad..den i realized dat i haven even tot of buying him aniting and panic lyk hell cuz will be meeting him on mondae which is his real burfdae..i asked 4 suggestions 4rm my msn frens and yasmin and ended up decided 2 buy him a t-shirt..realized dat it's not easy 2 find a guy's present..had 2 crack my head lyk hell..haiz,but nvm now at least i haf some ideas of wad 2 buy but i still tink dat tshirt is the best choice so dats it i'm gonna buy him a tshirt at ipzone(which is in ep)..hmm..i guess 2dae i will only be online 4 the whole dae..sian..yay!cant wait 4 tuesdae!will having picnic wif all the gals at east coast=)relli cant wait..ok,dats it 4 2dae..nth much 2 sae.

buhbye










will alwaes love u no matter wad



3:05 PM

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Friday, May 12, 2006

2dae i got no plans..juz sit home and online..lame i noe but wad 2 do?its raining out dere..hmm..firdaus juz sms me and ask me 2 go 2 an open house wif him den i sae dun wan leh(very paiseh u noe)i will feel so xtra but he insist and i kept saying no..feel so bad..if ur reading tis,firdaus i wud lyk 2 sae sorry ok..sometyms i juz kip wondering will we be frens 4ever lyk we alwaes sae we wud?i dun think so..frankly speaking i can see dat dere's a change in fifah..i reli miss the old her..she and me used 2 be so close but not anymore..walou,now i feel lyk crying sia..somemore i listening 2 graduation song..its very touching lehx..i dunno y am i feeling nervous now.hmm maybe i haf the feeling dat i will nt do well 4 math and sci paper..but i still haf a 2nd hope 4 math cuz having paper 2 tis monday..i will be meeting him tis monday i guess..so nervous..haf never seen him b4..i juz hope dat boii_gall@hotmail.com will not bother me anymore..eh boii_gall!2 whoever u are,i juz gotta sae dat ur a big hamji!u better noe dat u coward..ok back 2 my frens, lets juz 4get bout dat coward..he/she is nth but a coward..hmm,4 now i feel dat the closest 2 me are yasmin sabirah taqqy gayle sharm and mande(did i miss any1 out?i dun tink so)hah,mande juz sent me the link 4 'you got served'..man,i juz admire them..how i wish i can dance lyk them..it is so cool but needs alot of effort 2 be able 2 lyk them i guess(shah alwaes sae dat if u wanna dance well and impress others,u haf 2 sacrifice)talking about dance,i juz remembered dat i am gonna be damn bz.i will be having dance practices almost everyday next month and of course as usual guides courses..i wonder if i can make it 4 all the practices cuz i scared dat the courses and practices will clash..arghh.so stress!!ok den,dats all 4 2dae = )

take care readers!

love ya



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